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Beautiful

2006-11-29T06:08:20Z

It is we sinful women
who are not awed by the grandeur of those who wear gowns
who don't sell out lives
who don't bow our heads
who don't fold our hands together.

It is we sinful women
while those who sell the harvests of our bodies
become exalted
become distinguished
become the just princes of the material world.

It is we sinful women
who come out raising the banner of truth
up against barricades of lies on the highways
who find stories of persecution piled on each threshold
who find the tongues which could speak have been severed.

It is we sinful women.
Now, even if the night gives chase
these eyes shall not be put out.
For the wall which has been razed
don't insist now in raising it again.

It is we sinful women
who are not awed by the grandeur of those who wear gowns
who don't sell out lives
who don't bow our heads
who don't fold our hands together.

-- Kishwar Naheed
a pakistani feminist who keeps getting censured by the government for obscenity

Knights in shining armor

2006-06-15T18:59:33Z

I'm all find with the ideal of the knight in shining armor thing as long as I get to ride by his side and join the adventure. I was never one who liked being a damsle in distress - which has made this whole thing harder. I don't want someone feel like they have to rescue me. I used to pretend I was She-ra from masters of the universe or I was Xena Warrior Princess. Anything but Rupunzel or Sleeping Beauty. But the reality is that there are no knights in shining armor and fairytales are meant to scare the crap out of little children...there are no happy endings. The little girl in me mourns over that

He's SOOOOOO Cute!!!

2006-04-02T23:09:28Z

Odd juxiposition

2006-03-31T00:36:05Z

I've always wanted to use that word...Juxiposition. I'm not even sure if I'm using it right, I think I am. An unfortunate event of illness occured with one of my dear friends, Megan, that left us sitting in the ER for an ungodly amount of time waiting. If you want God to teach you patience or just how to wait - be specific and leave any possibility of sitting in the ER as an object lesson out. Anyway. Megan will be okay. that little rant had to do with where I was at the time I made a mental note on odd juxipositions.

Menonites.

There's a certain surrealness to them. Home made dresses, Amishlike in a lot of their ways but with celphones and high end sneakers. There were a few Menonites in the ER and I couldn't help watch them. It was just a very odd thing for me to see. Living in Pensacola you see them a lot but I just can't quite get over how a very old fashion, strick lifestyle finds itself mingling in with the modern. New Sketchers under a homemade, extremely modest dress. A Cingular Razor held next to ears and hair that's hidden underneath a bonnet. Juxiposition? Lack of sleep? Bored at work?

hah!! I's a year younger than i act!

2006-03-29T00:20:34Z

You Are 26 Years Old

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.

13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.

20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.

30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!

40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

What Age Do You Act?

Amending last entry

2006-03-24T21:36:19Z

I spent dinner with my dad and step-mom argueing about weird thing...I don't know if I was doing any of the argueing. Just listening. My step-mom went on an outrage about me being in a figure drawing class. Yeah, it was ackward in the beinging but it's pretty professional and I'm not sure anymore of the "unethicalness of it." I don't think God sees anything wrong with me taking the class... if anything He's shown me the beauty I fail to see sometimes. The models are real people too interesting people, trying to pay for college. They're pretty modest outside of the job too. Drawing them....trying to reflect God's design...is that so wrong? It's not capturing a sexual act. There was a point were I'd agree with her but not so much anymore. Mom and I talked about it once.. she compared what I do in class to working in the medical field. " You see naked bodies all the time and they're just that to you... there's nothing sexual about it." was what she said. I could say to my step-mom that it's professional..but she'd say something to the effect that so is the pornography industry. Art and porn are not the same.

The whole time she was going on she kept saying how unchristian it was and how I should stand up for my rights as a christian student and say that I shouldn't have to take the class because I find it unethical and "not of god". Well.. I like the class. I think maybe God's teaching me a lot in that class. He shows me that woman were designed to be beautiful.. all of us...me. Men have a beauty in the mechanical quality of their build...a complicated, finely engineered machine (except for that one model who needs to do something other than play video games) from the bone structure up. It really impresses me...as fustrated as I get with the act of drawing. I'm somewhat surprised that the artist that believe that we were created by a god or God himself are in the minority. Anyway..is it really ungodly if God's working with it? I do know that it would be a bad witness for me to go out and be a nude model...not that I would anyway because I'm not that comfortable in my own skin.

Listening to her and then to some stuff dad's already been saying I had this overwhelming feeling that what they understand christianity to be exists in a man made box. Do you get what I'm say?

There was also this arguement between me and dad about what global warming is and if it's real. Yes and no. Global warming as it is taught in high schools, the news and withing the evolutionists club is not...but yes global warming trends do occur that cause abnormal weather patterns like a lot of hurricanes and weird winters, we might be in one now...it's a broken world trying it's job...seeking eqalibrium. It won't until Jesus does some redesigning. And I had to laugh at dad because here he is arguing with the environmental scientist who randomly keeps up on the subject via Alex or the journals that I get to shelve.

paentedsun @ 2006-03-23T20:16:00

2006-03-24T01:12:36Z

paentedsun @ 2006-03-23T20:12:00

2006-03-24T01:11:37Z

What is it? What is art and how does it relate to the Christian hat is it? Better yet how does 'christianity' relate that is ? Conversations left me wondering and upset. Christianity's it's own social box and forgets that it's legalisms is nothing more than that of the Pharasees and Sagesees of Jesus's era. Removing itself from God and his purpose. Alienating those that God pursues. I call myself an artist and a follower of Christ..not so sure if I want to be associated with the limitation of a subculture.

Geez!! How EMO does that sound?!!!

Well Duh....

2006-03-23T23:27:20Z

You Should Be a Science Fiction Writer

Your ideas are very strange, and people often wonder what planet you're from.
And while you may have some problems being "normal," you'll have no problems writing sci-fi.
Whether it's epic films, important novels, or vivid comics...
Your own little universe could leave an important mark on the world!

What Type of Writer Should You Be?

paentedsun @ 2006-02-27T20:08:00

2006-02-28T02:08:49Z

The Movie Of Your Life Is A Cult Classic

Quirky, offbeat, and even a little campy - your life appeals to a select few.
But if someone's obsessed with you, look out! Your fans are downright freaky.

Your best movie matches: Office Space, Showgirls, The Big Lebowski

If Your Life Was a Movie, What Genre Would It Be?

paentedsun @ 2006-02-27T19:38:00

2006-02-28T01:39:56Z

The Devoted Lover
63% partner focus, 33% aggressiveness, 50% adventurousness

Based on the results of this test, it is highly likely that:

You prefer your romance and love to be traditional rather than daring or out-of-the-ordinary, you would rather be pursued than do the pursuing and, when it comes to physical love, your satisfaction comes more from providing a wonderful time to your partner than simply seeking your own.

This places you in the Lover Style of: The Devoted Lover.

The Devoted Lover is a wonderful Lover Style, and is perhaps the best Lover Style when it comes to developing a long-term, caring and rewarding relationship. The Devoted Lover is a treasure to find, though it is sometimes difficult to time establishing a relationship with one just right; usually, this is the last romantic relationship you'll need to find, so sow any wild oats first.

In terms of physical love, the Devoted Lover can be shy at first but gradually warms and eventually can be a thrilling partner who knows every need of his/her partner. Given a strong and loving relationship, and the right lover, the Devoted Lover can be a delight in bed.

Best Compatibility can probably be found with: The Suave Lover (most of all) or the Classic Lover, or the Carnal Lover.

Congratulations!

If you enjoyed this test, I would love the feedback! Also, you might want to check out some of my other tests if you're interested in the following:

Nerds, Geeks & Dorks

Professional Wrestling

Buffy the Vampire Slayer

America/Politics

Thanks Again! -- THE LOVER STYLE PROFILE TEST

My test tracked 3 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:

You scored higher than 65% on partner focus

You scored higher than 14% on aggressiveness

You scored higher than 37% on adventurousness

Link: The Lover Style Profile Test written by donathos on OkCupid Free Online Dating, home of the 32-Type Dating Test

What the....?

2006-02-21T22:58:31Z

This is a stupid test...How the heck did it come up with this from my answers?
Your results:
You are An Expendable Character (Redshirt)

An Expendable Character (Redshirt)		85%
Beverly Crusher		65%
Geordi LaForge		65%
Will Riker		60%
Deanna Troi		55%
Spock		54%
Chekov		45%
Mr. Scott		40%
James T. Kirk (Captain)		35%
Leonard McCoy (Bones)		35%
Jean-Luc Picard		35%
Worf		35%
Uhura		30%
Mr. Sulu		25%
Data		22%

Since your accomplishments are seldom noticed,
and you are rarely thought of, you are expendable.
That doesn't mean your job isn't important but if you
were in Star Trek you would be killed off in the first
episode you appeared in.

Click here to take the Star Trek Personality Quiz

Smiling on V-day

2006-02-15T04:27:52Z

Even when I was dating someone I didn't like valentines day. It's a hallmark scam. 13.7 billion dollars goes to the capitalistas on this day alone! But today was great! Today I felt loved and I'm running on a psycho sugar hi, and I got the sweetest email ever from a bigger anti-valentines day person than me. *warm fuzzies*
I must be special.

Intimacy and Vulnerability

2006-01-27T02:45:41Z

The hardest things. The things that make you wonder what being relational's really worth are the one's that either benefit you the greatest or hurt you the worst. There's never really an in between. I've come to believe that "intimacy" and "vulernability" are those two things.

I have yet to see the great benefits. I indulge myself in this ridiculous dream that if I open up to someone I really care deeply about that that person will respond in kind. I'm so wrong. I'm not sure why I do it. I'm not sure why I think it's worth it when all the signs are there. "WASTE OF YOUR TIME." The sign's often ignored and the stab in the heart is invariably the next thing to occur. My outer shell must look alright because no one seems to know. I'm laughing on the outside but I'm crying on the inside. My dreams don't come true, the people I chose to love reject me, and God doesn't hear my prayers.

pretty true

2006-01-27T02:37:06Z

Your Inner Blood Type is Type A

You seem cool and collected, though a bit shy.
You are highly driven and a perfectionist, but that's a side you keep to yourself.
Creative and artistic, you are a very unique person who doesn't quite fit in.
People accept you more than you realize, seeing you as trustworthy and loyal.

You are most compatible with: A and AB

Famous Type A's: Britney Spears and Hilter

What's Your Inner Blood Type?

I'm Earthy...and that doesn't mean I smell bad

2006-01-27T02:11:54Z

Your Love Element Is Earth

In love, you have consistency and integrity.
For you, love is all about staying grounded and centered.

You attract others with your zest for life and experiences.
Your flirting style is defined by setting the scene, creating a unique moment in time.

Steady progress and stability are the cornerstones of your love life.
You may take things too slowly, but you never put your heart at risk.

You connect best with: Fire

Avoid: Wood

You and another Earth element: need each other too much to build a good foundation

What Element Is Your Love?

Bert?

2006-01-27T02:08:49Z

Bert
You scored 72% Organization, 63% abstract, and 47% extroverted!

This test measured 3 variables.

First, this test measured how organized you are. Some muppets like Cookie Monster make big messes, while others like Bert are quite anal about things being clean.

Second, this test measured if you prefer a concrete or an abstract viewpoint. For the purposes of this test, concrete people are considered to gravitate more to mathematical and logical approaches, whereas abstract people are more the dreamers and artistic type.

Third, this test measured if you are more of an introvert or an extrovert. By definition, an introvert concentrates more on herself and an extrovert focuses more on others. In this test an introvert was somebody that either tends to spend more time alone or thinks more about herself.

You are very organized, both concrete and abstract, and both introverted and extroverted.

Here is why are you Bert.

You are both very organized. You almost always know where your belongings are and you prefer things neat. You may even enjoy cleaning and find it therapeutic. Bert is a big neat freak and gets quite annoyed when Ernie makes a big mess.

You both are sometimes concrete and sometimes abstract thinkers. Bert is probably a bit more concrete in his bottlecap collecting addiction and his love of the weather. He does show his abstract side when he sings and performs his "Doin' The Pidgeon" song. You have a good balance in your life. You know when to be logical at times, but you also aren't afraid to explore your dreams and desires... within limits of course.

You are both somewhat introverted. Bert is probably more introverted, because he spends most of his time either with Ernie or alone. Still he has no problem being around other people in his role as chairman of "The National Association of 'W' Lovers." Like Bert, you probably like to have some time to yourself, but you do appreciate spending time with your friends, and you aren't scared of social situations.

The other possible characters are
Oscar the Grouch
Big Bird
Snuffleupagus
Ernie
Elmo
Kermit the Frog
Grover
Cookie Monster
Guy Smiley
The Count

If you enjoyed this test, I would love the feedback! Also if you want to tell me your favorite Sesame Street character, I can total them up and post them here. Perhaps your choice will win!

My test tracked 3 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:

You scored higher than 88% on Organization

You scored higher than 82% on concrete-abstra

You scored higher than 20% on intro-extrovert

Link: The Your SESAME STREET Persona Test written by greencowsgomoo on OkCupid Free Online Dating, home of the 32-Type Dating Test

Defining Intimate

2006-01-25T02:09:06Z

Merriam-Webster's Dictionary defines intimate as being;

1. a; intrinsic, essential b; belonging to or characterizing one's deepest nature.
2. marked by very close association, contact or familiarity.
3. a; marked by a warm friendship developing through long association b; suggesting informal warmth or privacy.
4. of a very personal or private nature.

How do you make a word not be what it means? How do you visually define a word to not mean itself anymore yet relay the message that it once did mean what it means? How does intimate become something else yet leave a traces of it's original meaning?

Intimate is a strong word for me. It's personal. It characterizes this one's deepest nature. I yern for very close associations, contacts or familiarities. I hunger for warm friendships that develop through long associations and that will last into the long future. It's reflective in my art..unconsiously. Intimacy scares the crap out of me. It requires a vunlerability to being hurt. Who wants that? Hurt, pain, disappointment. Who wants to be vulnerable...allowing a person to know the deepest nature of oneself and never getting the same in return, or worse, being shund and abused for it.
....sometimes I want to lock the doors and keep everyone out but I'm not so good at doing that.

Intimacy accumulates a lot of scars I think.

Music

2006-01-20T02:41:58Z

Who needs to speak? A person can comminicate ideas, emotions, whatever through music. Granted it helps if you have musical ability. If not you just have to talk I guess.
I have never heard such skill with an instrument. Chris Thiles uses the mandalin like a poet or narrator uses his (or her) voice. His body language and facial expressions were so vivid and connected to the music that was coming out of the little mandalin.
It inspires the dreamer mind of the artist. There was a deep understanding of what was going on between the artist on the stage and the artists in the audience. No biases here, all artists...we all use the dreamer mind. You knew where he was when his eyes unfocused because you've been there before. Eye contact kept him from getting lost in his playing and it kept him on track with his sets. Beautiful stuff.

This has so much to do with me being bored at work

2006-01-20T02:33:38Z

Some find it great but I don't. i find it horribly dull. Work consists of me sitting at the information desk here at the library. That's it. That's all I do. Occationally someone comes and asks a question (normally a stupid question) and I answer it. Yup. I could be at a party now but I have to pay the bills so I sit here for 6 hours.